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(you look so good) incase you were wondering [17 Feb 2008|02:53pm] where i had gone. http://minusthepen.blogspot.com/

(you look so good) I kept it [29 Dec 2007|08:51am] I tasted your pearly white teeth and your tongue underneath I got caught up in the blade of a knife and the stabbing wound that would ensue Where are you Marley? We went both ways but separately We cleaned our teeth and cleaned our sheets This made up bed is too pretty! Where are we to go in this dirty world? A gala at the mall, a holiday spree? These chocolates are talking but not to me

(you look so good) And rightly so [30 Nov 2007|12:43pm] One day I'll have the courage to delete this thing These memories don't serve me.

(you look so good) Hey [29 Nov 2007|07:49pm] I had forgotten about you

(you look so good) [12 Jan 2007|02:53am] there's no more me, it's all you.

(you look so good) so um... [24 Oct 2006|11:42pm] [ mood | bored ] i stopped thinking, now what?

(you look so good) why must you [11 Oct 2006|11:19pm] inspire me so why must you inspire me so why must you inspire me so why must you i think i love you you fucking ho

(you look so good) Why should i need validation? [05 Oct 2006|02:00am] This balance thing is difficult. cost and time are just words to me how can this be can this be?

(1 had | you look so good) a collection of notes [23 Sep 2006|03:10pm] I don't know who i am _______ ________ ________________ You know you do. Judge and jury Judge injury. I’ll tell you later. Resonate. Don’t make me cry. forget about me. We’re the dreamers Sleep is a delicacy I am putting on a show Everything moves fast, so go slow I am putting on a show I want to tell you I... it’s more than you should know I am putting on a show Maybe someday I’ll tell you so Is this nothing but a collection of memories? I slept all day, I didn’t get a wink I can take you apart Friendly faces with friendly teeth and hollow spaces If I’m not dying I must be close Something, something, something, nothing Distance love It’s so quiet in here I feel so strange all of the time _______________________________________ incase you were wondering what i was thinking or seeing

(you look so good) [24 Apr 2006|06:12pm] I think i've finally come to understand what it is i want to do in life. I merely want to leave an impression on the earth. The most fleeting moments in life are the ones we come to savor the most. A glance, a shooting star, fireworks, fireflies, dreams, an orgasm. Something which can never be held on to. The intangible. It's best understood in a moment, because nothing is permanent and nothing lasts forever. I want to be felt, not just touched.

(you look so good) i want to FEEL something [29 Mar 2006|09:53pm] [ mood | fade to black ] i want to feel nothing.

(you look so good) dead. [22 Feb 2006|10:48pm] [ mood | inbetween ] Today I went to a funeral and almost died on the way home, how fucked up is that?

(2 had | you look so good) origianl sin [20 Feb 2006|11:57am] temptation, original sin, creation, the fall of eden whatever you want to call it, it's permanent

(you look so good) Learning to live and let go [15 Feb 2006|01:24pm] [ mood | uneven ground ] I can't really explain my life to you but if i had to pick any word to describe my thoughts on it now I'd choose difficult for sure. Will things ever be easy? Fuck money fuck love fuck hate and fuck me. I don't understand things as much as i'd like to think. Perhaps i am too honest but without that i don't think i'd know myself at all. So i'm learning to live in a world with money and love and hate and fucking. It's tolerable i assume, i'm still breathing and fighting and gasping for air sometimes. But I'm still living and i guess thats all that really matters. I've only just begun to understand what it is to be human, something i think very few of us do understand. What does it mean to you?

(you look so good) the birth of me [10 Feb 2006|12:56pm] It has occured to me recently that people are much to concerned with the coming and going of things. Life and death. How we love to debate over such pungent theories. I'm debating whether we should be less concerned with the going of things, yet we can not think of going without coming. And by this I mean we can't leave without thinking of how we came to be. Creation for example, how can we keep on going without knowledge of our creation? It's a bitter cycle. Knowing and not knowing. The bitter taste of knowledge and it's sweet fruitful beauty. How could one not sink their teeth in to such delictible thoughts! Are we not humans with inquiring minds? Do we not feel and yearn to be felt back? What are we without our bitter contradictions? Mere humans who yearn for immortal bodies. Why should we be content to stay in such restricted boundaries? My being can not be contained in this bodily machine forever, i refuse it! Death will come and go as it pleases. And so as i think of it now although death may dare to stir it's icy finger in my heart i will welcome its coldness in hopes of a warmer touch one day. I say this with the mere hopes that things will not be quite so rigid one day and coming and going will be the same as coming together. I say live forever and die young.

(you look so good) circles are never incomplete [08 Feb 2006|01:57pm] [ mood | circles ] If everything means nothing, then nothing means everything. one might think these things carry opposite meanings, yet how can they if they're the same? Everything is the same. Opposites attract with perfect disagreement. love and hate both carry the same intensities. What does it matter? Meaningful or meaningless. Pick one, but you better make sure it's the "right" one.(therein lies an answer in itself) I on the other hand choose both I choose circles not squares (their sides are too rigid for my liking) I often contemplate the complexities of choices and the simplicity of answer black, white, right, wrong, right, left, up, down, yes and no. I refuse to fool myself into thinking just one is ever the answer to anything

(you look so good) venting [25 Jan 2006|01:47pm] [ mood | a size-able portion ] I smoke pot, so what? now leave me alone. stupid apartment director man.

(you look so good) sleep [14 Jan 2006|02:45am] There was a point in time where i did not dream at all. Some might say this is impossible but if anything, I've learned that impossible is a lie fashioned for the weak. During this time i remember feeling as if i were merely lying awake, only hours would go by as if i had been sleeping. Dreamless sleep is so restless. Without them i felt nothing. My dreams have once again returned in such astonishing numbers that i can hardly remember even the smallest detail. I can feel them once again, even if i can't understand, i know they're there. I've never been good at remembering but i have a knack for bringing them to life.

(you look so good) meaningless/full [10 Jan 2006|12:22pm] Truth and reality, such heavy words with masks to fit any number of faces. I put it on. I take it off. I put it on. I take it off. I see you. I saw you. I see you when you're gone. I see you when you're sleeping. You forgot your mask at my place. I hope you never find it again. If you ever find it i might not ever see you again. Goodbyes are okay. Being left is right. It's always right. You were right, so i left. Close your eyes so i can see you. Open them so i can leave you. Let me go and keep me here in the same breath. Feel me in you chest, in your lungs. Feel me while i'm gone. See me. Sea me. Hear me. Heart me. Love me. Leave me. alone. together. with you and without you. We're the same. It's all the same.

(you look so good) Goodbye Riverside... [05 Jan 2006|01:09pm] [ mood | sleepy ] forever i hope. new apartments are grand.

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